Psychological

I think that it is a combination of both: Physical and Psychological things that get it the way of my walking and moving like a normal person. If I had to pick one over the other at this point in time, I would choose Psychological.

No matter what I am doing, I am constantly thinking of my sons Camden and Bowdoin Richardson and all the time I have lost with them. If you haven't read my book, you really should to understand everthing that the bitch did to me and my sons and continues to do to us. Not only were my sons told that I was dead on numerous occassions so was my kids' schools and their friends and acquaitences' parents. How can anyone be so sick and demented??

The worst part now is she is brainwashing my sons against me. Telling them that Daddy doesn't help, he doesn't pay child support and he never wants to talk with you or be with you. All blatant lies!!!!!!!

I often think about all this and so much more in regards to my sons as I walk. It depresses me and hurts me on a myriad of different fronts. No wonder my doctor gave me a happy pill. As I walk I often think what if my sons were with me and I am attempting to anticipate the unforseen. In short, I am thinking too much. Jerald wants me to walk without thinking. Much easier said than done.