Right Foot

I hit another bucket of balls today. A much smaller bucket and some funny things happened when I concentrated on my real - right foot. When I squared my right foot to the ball and took my swing with my feet suared to the ball, I could really shift my weight from real side to my prosthetic side.

I was finally swinging with more than my arms. I was also swinging using my hips and waist area and the ball was going further. I guess my real foot has negatively impacted my walking and my golf swing for I have always kept my real foot out to the side and turned to the right as a safety precaution and as a balance precaution as well. Now when I walk and swing a golf club, I focus on my real leg and especially my real foot to make sure that it is straight. Does this make any sense?

I don't know if it does to me either but the results seem to be better when I walk and when I hit a golf ball and my balance seems to be better too.

Bucket of balls

I hit a bucket of balls today at the Toddy brook driving range and I didn't fall once!!!!!!!!!!! It was incredibly tiresome and I didn't realize that the bucket would be so big. Next time I will get a smaller bucket and bring a chair to sit on to take a break. Phew..... enough complaining James. I hit the ball well......at least it was straight. Not nearly as long as I would like but they were straight.

Now my stance wasn't a typical golf stance but more like a closed baseball stance for standing that way I hit the ball straight everytime. Jerald #2, my father, wants me to swing more with my body and hips, not just my arms. He has designed an exercise for me to do with my cane as a club and shifting my weight from my real (right) side to my prothetic (left) side and in doing so twist and lift up my real heel. I am practicing this and see if it makes a difference the next time that I go to the driving range. I wish that Jerald #1 could see it.

My Sons

It would be so much easier to walk if I weren’t carrying around so much baggage……….mental baggage that is. I haven’t seen my sons in over 3 years. I miss them so much!!!!!!!!!!! Ever since my horrific accident October 12, 2003 I have only seen and been with my sons a couple of handfuls of times. The bitch (Linda-Lucinda) refuses to live up to the divorce decree!!!! After spending thousands of dollars on two different occasions to take her back to court and all she gets is a slap on the wrist by the ignorant Floridian judges who should basically know her by now on a first name basis, but I digress………. - I can no longer afford to keep taking her back to court. I am on disability!!!!
Whenever I walk and attempt to walk I think of my sons, Camden and Bowdoin Richardson ages 11 and 9 respectively and all the time I have missed with them. They were 4 and 2 and the time of the accident. I have missed being with them and raising them. Teaching them to play ball and read, play with them, in short, being their Dad. It hurts me so much!!!!!!!!!! I think about them as I walk as if they are with me walking and then something happens close to them and I have to move quickly in order to protect them. Do you know what I mean??? And I am unable to move quickly enough…….. This makes me so angry, sad and somewhat depressed.
Is there any wonder that my doctor has prescribed me a happy pill?? Linda, the ex-wife (Lucinda in my book) has stolen so much from me!!!!!! Hopefully one day she will get hers and perhaps it is beginning she just got caught for DUI. According to my prosthesis’, Jerald, I should clear my head and just walk. Easier said than done. I think that is why he wanted me to get one of those I-pod things to listen to music while I walk.

Progress

I met Jerald today at the Mall to walk and low and behold he was impressed with my progress. He said that I am making progress in terms of my flow and gate; moreover that he sees a huge difference in my real (right) foot being faced straight on while I walk now rather than being turned out. He was impressed and told me to continue walking more and more.

He likes how I have calmed my body down while I walk specifically my upper body arms and shoulders. He still wants me to relax my right leg as I walk.

will winter ever end?

I walked the Parking lot again today with a carriage. I concentrated once again on my real leg and my right (real) foot insuring that it was straight on when I walked rather than turned out. I did well - I think and I can't wait for Jerald to see it. I then did without the shopping cart and just used my cane and once again I did well. I tried it without anything but there was still snow in the parking lot from yesterday's storm. Since it is now April I am hoping that winter will now end!!!